Since I am a bit free today ( I just finished my oral exam PhD, praise the Lord), I decided to write something which I shared with a friend of mine, a youth worker in one parish here.
I was sharing with him of God’s calling in my life to come regularly to spend a holy hour before the blessed sacrament. I guess it all started when I read the book written by Bishop Fulton Sheen. He promised the Lord that he would spend an hour a day before the blessed sacrament when he became a priest. And he did it! Then one day a friend of mine gave a book on the life of Sr. Briege McKenna “Miracles do Happen”. There Sr. Briege shared that she tried to spend time two hours daily before the blessed sacrament.
Well I love all those story but nothing happen until about two or three years ago. I started to have a desire to spend time with the Lord in the adoration room. So I told the Lord, “Lord I want to, but I don’t think I have the time. So help me Lord.” Well, the desire was there, but I didn’t go to the adoration room, because I didn’t have time.
One day, I went to a healing rally where a priest from India gave a talk. After the talk they invited us to come forward if we want to be prayed over. So I came forward, well, nothing to lose, don’t waste the grace that God wants to give to his people. So I came forward and the leader prayed for me. And after she finished the prayer and I was leaving, she tapped me, and said, “I felt the Lord wants you to go to the adoration room more often.” … I was startled, I couldn’t believe it. After a few seconds of looking at her, I just smile and left.
Well, I left the church that day saying to myself, “Oka, you better do it.” So I started to find time, and surprisingly, there is time! So every Sunday morning I came to the adoration room and spend my time with the Lord there.
To be frank, there are difficult moments, sometimes I skip the holy hour because of laziness of waking up in the morning. But the Lord help me to be faithful, the desire was still there. That is His voice that kept on inviting me to come.
One difficulties that I experience was that I kept on thinking what I should do during the one hour there in the adoration room. I tried rosary, the longest prayer I knew :p, I tried books on eucharistic adoration. I tried to praise and worship him, I tried reading the scripture, etc, etc. The point is, I was clueless what I should do for one hour in the adoration room.
One day I realize, maybe from the book of Sr. Briege, that I have a wrong conception. When I came to the adoration room to spend a time with the Lord, it’s not about what I should do for the Lord. Rather, it’s about what the Lord is doing to me.
So I still prayed, sometimes I meditate the scriptures, and other things. But I am not worried anymore. Most of the time, I sat and looked at the Lord. I tried to be still, and say, “Here I am Lord”.
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